*Revised this post so it has more coherency and sounds less like a sad 13 year old wrote it*
So, I have found out that my parents may not be able to visit me on the program. This has spawned me questioning and doubting what little I was sure of about the program. You may not understand where I'm coming from, but I'm really close to my mom especially.
Since last night I've had time to think about it, and I'm feeling much less frazzled. I'm definitely still doing the program, duh. I don't know why I ever said I might not. I'm still debating between fall and fall advantage though. Would it be selfish to still want FA? For me, this is a once in a lifetime thing. I'm not going to extend, I'm not going to do the program again. Mainly because I know it doesn't really tie into the career I want right away. So being away from home and not seeing my family and friends for 7 months will be tough on them and me, but...it's not like it's going to be happening very often. You know what I mean?
Like when I grow up and move out I won't be far from home. You get it? There's no other reasons in my future to go 7 months without seeing my family.
And it's not like I'll be alone, or even alone in being homesick. Everyone will get homesick every once in a while.
On John Henselmeier's vlog, he mentioned that when you get homesick, you just need to surround yourself with your d-fam. Well, I think I'm already meeting people who are going to make a great future d-fam!
So, thanks everyone for commenting! (Lol Abby, I love your honesty.) Is the fact that I'll go insane waiting for August a good reason to do fall advantage? ;)